Back to school

It has all gone fairly smoothly! Which is better than I anticipated, after Jade said half-way through the summer holidays that she wanted me to go into class with her to start with when she went back. I thought that if she was worrying about it so much in advance, things would only get worse the closer it got. But no!

I told her that I knew she would be fine and that it would only take her half an hour or so to remember what to do and where to go and what this was all like and that she could cope with it, and then she'd be fine. I agreed to sit outside in the courtyard until 10am, so that I was nearby if she needed me but not actually in the building. When she woke up in the morning, she had a few tears with anxiety about doing swimming and PE. I was able to tell her that there wasn't any swimming this term, so she needn't worry about that, and that I would talk to her TA about her PE anxieties. And pointed out that she definitely wouldn't be doing any PE the first day anyway, so not to worry about it today. She got up and dressed happily after that. Shannon was excited to go back and had been looking forward to it for ages, so she was ready and waiting nice and early.

We walked round to the school, and I dropped Shannon off in the infant playground first of all and saw her go in with her new teacher. Then Jade and I went back round to the junior playground and everybody had already gone in. (Normally they do 'wake and shake' movement to music to wake up their brains first thing, but not this first morning). Anyway I didn't mind the chance to just hold her hand and see her right into the classroom on this first morning. Now she's a Year 5 she goes upstairs to her classroom. So up we went, into her classroom and the teacher welcomed her warmly and pointed out where she was going to sit, next to her friend B. Jade needed to put her backpack on her peg, though, so we were directed back outside the classroom to the cloakroom area, where we left the bag. Then as we headed back towards the classroom, Jade stopped and went all weepy. I gave her a cuddle, lots of reminders of positive self-talk to try and fill her mind with, but she wouldn't go in. After a few minutes I could hear the teacher had finished taking the register and all the children started lining up by the door to go down to assembly. We were very near the door, so I told the teacher that Jade was 'having a bit of a wobble' and the teacher was very kind and calming and said "that's OK, lots of us have a bit of a wobble on the first day back, including the teachers!" She asked Jade if she would be happy to go into assembly, and she nodded, so I went with her at the end of the line back downstairs, and she agreed to go into the hall without me. I indicated I would wait outside as we'd previously agreed. I went and sat in the courtyard for an hour, reading the book I'd brought, and at 10am her teaching assistant came out to me and said Jade was absolutely fine and was happy for me to leave! And she's gone back happily every day since then with no fuss or trouble, I leave her in the playground like every other parent does, and don't go into school at all! She's even done PE, and enjoyed it!

Shannon, on the other hand, loved her first 2 days back, and then last week started to say every morning that she didn't want to go. She only says it before she's actually got out of bed. Once she's up and dressed, she seems quite happy to go. I've tried talking to her on several occasions about what exactly does she not like, but she can't articulate it. If anything, it seems to be playground related possibly - getting used to people not wanting to play games her way, or not being her friend. If it's not that, then it's just that she doesn't want to be out of the house that long, because she frequently says she just wants to be with me all the time. I have spoken to her teacher, who has agreed to keep an eye on things especially in the playground, and who said she was surprised because Shannon is very happy and productive in the classroom. Certainly every day when I pick her up I ask her if she's had a nice day and she says yes. I ask her to tell me what was fun or good and she can usually think of plenty of things. I'm keeping a close eye on what's going on and trying to read between the lines but at the moment I think she is generally happy enough except she doesn't want to get up and dressed and go out in the mornings, and who does?!