Routine, or lack of it

Okay, just a little vent, and then I'll try and get back into positive mode.

I am so annoyed with myself at my complete inability to ever stick to any kind of routine. I was signed up with Flylady for 4 years and have visibly failed to improve in any significant way with the housework, or have any sort of pattern to the days. I haven't managed to start the stuff I want to do with Tamsin, as mentioned yesterday. I keep having to give myself a fringe trim because I haven't got round to making a hair appointment (my normal lovely lady who comes to the house is on maternity leave at the moment); the girls get bathed at random (infrequent) intervals, etc.

Has anybody else suffered from a complete lack of self-discipline, and managed to improve at all? Or am I doomed to chaos for the rest of my life ....? I wouldn't mind if I was *happy* with being a 'free spirit', but I do feel that everything would run much more smoothly and I would get more done with less stress if only I could get a bit organised.

Anyway, there's been some nice educational stuff going on in a random kind of a way - Tamsin has had some interesting times playing with the Cuisenaire rods which arrived last week (thanks Sarah!), she's been slowly exploring her new LeapPad, and yesterday when we were about to go out to a friend's son's first birthday party, she saw the envelope with the birthday card in it, and I heard her say quietly "T....O.....M .... Tom.." which is the first time she's spontaneously read anything or broken down the sounds like that on her own!

Oh, and I've decided that since I missed out on celebrating my 40th birthday in August, due to being too tired while pregnant, I'm going to celebrate it on my half-birthday on 24th February!