Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Cold front passing over, depression looming ....

Plumber still hasn't got back to us so we're still sitting in the cold with the exception of one fan heater. Nevertheless we've managed to have a decent enough day HE-wise, if not behaviour-wise (mine!!).

We started with a leisurely getting-up and going off to the group at church, during which we listened to a tape of an amazing meditation on Isaiah 61, which was very moving and powerful and which I must borrow to listen to more. Had to leave a little early to get to the surgery for Isabelle's 3rd immunisation. Tamsin had said beforehand that she didn't want to listen to Isabelle cry because it was upsetting, so she put her hands over her ears. Strange how it doesn't stop her pushing her over, or taking the toy Isabelle is playing with, or anything else that makes her cry at home! Then a quick dash into the local supermarket to pick up a couple of things which turned into a £40+ trolley-full, and then home, going just slowly enough for Isabelle to fall asleep in the car.

I know for many HEers, the time when the baby sleeps is when they get to do some serious stuff with their older one, but as far as I'm concerned it's time for me to get some rest, so Tamsin got to watch CBeebies and I had a lie down on the sofa and maybe even a little snooze. The tasks of the afternoon have blurred into a muddle, but I know we went through the little 'workbook' thing in the magazine that I bought for Tamsin while shopping, so that included some writing, counting, matching, spotting the difference, and easy addition and subtraction. It was interesting to note in the 'counting' section that she didn't have to count 1, 2, 3 to count to 3 and 4 - she just looked at them and saw how many there were. That's the first time I've noticed that happening. Tamsin then picked up a library book - Usborne Beginners "Dogs" - and read the first few pages of that to me, only needing help with one or two words on each page. While I was making the dinner she sat at the table and read a Red Nose Reader. She's also played with her animals, but really it was just the hardest thing to get her to move more than about 3 inches away from me and actually get on with anything on her own. She's just wanted to sit on my knee the whole afternoon, and Isabelle has pretty much wanted to do the same, and it's just driven me batty, so I'm afraid there's been a fair bit of yelling "just go away" and "leave me alone" going on. I do have to say that this is not the sole tone of our communication today, there has been plenty of positive comment, loving interaction and good stuff, but some days I just can't bear the feeling that they're both just trying to get back inside my skin one moment longer!!!

Didn't manage to blog yesterday (fell asleep at the girls' bedtime again and was very cross to discover I missed ER and the programme about Selective Mutism) but I must just record that a friend came and finished digging the vegetable patch for me, then hoed it, and then guided me in planting the potatoes, so we have our first home-grown stuff planted!! Very exciting!

1 comment:

Rossi said...

Leave me alone and having a sleep during the day is sane and perfectly normal behaviour. I worry far more about people who don't have a moments break from their children, who don't value their own lives, their own sanity and would rather spend every minute of every day on their children. I think you have done exactly the right thing. Everyone will benefit- I promise you.

Tamsin loves her sister that's why she can drive her nuts at hime and worry when someone else is hurtign her. Sounds like you have it sorted really.