after a *very* large glass of Baileys. Definitely not one of my better birthdays. Been in a foul mood all day. Sobbed in the shower after blogging this morning. Half-way through the morning I decided to sod work and indulge in my second-favourite form of therapy: retail. (Favourite therapy being sleep!) Took kids to Stratford and spent over £40 in Boots .... various bits and pieces but sorted out a few problems i.e. replaced my lost tweezers so can now get eyebrows into shape, and bought some waxing strips to use with the home-made sugaring solution I made months ago.
Then came home and a quick change of clothes to go to my friend Kate's eldest daughter's 6th birthday party. I got a small fairy cake with a candle in it while they sang Happy Birthday to me, as well as Daisy. Tamsin was not in party mood - she refused to take part in any games or indeed to play with any other children although she knows many of them very well - she just kept asking me to play with her. Probably she's feeling my 'go away' vibes and it's making her feel insecure.... One of the major things that's been making me feel so weepy is that I am so fed up with her wanting 'mummymilk' every couple of hours throughout the day and I want to wean her, but am worried about inflicting a major emotional wound. Maybe it's the only one of her persistent demands that I feel I can change. Maybe I should find something else to change so that I find her demands easier to cope with. I don't know. I just know I feel very conflicted about it all.
Anyway, I'm just waiting for Bill to get home with a huge Chinese takeaway ... thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes!
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Hope the chinese cheered you up a bit as well, sorry it was a naff birthday - perhaps you should have an extra 'unofficial' one at the weekend. Or something.
Happy Birthday, anyway.
Well, hope the take out cheered you up a bit. I go with Sarah, declare that birthday null and void and have another go in a week or so (maybe start on the Bailey's earlier next time?????) As for demanding small people, no advice but lots of hugs your way and hope you can sort something out. Becca went through a phase of going to home ed groups then clinging to me for the whole time but she seemed to grow out of it after a while.
Belated birthday wishes (((and hugs))), sorry they are late!
We did cheer up Chinese last night too! Can sympathise with the mummy milk bit but yes, like you I find I want to change it because its the bit I could change.
Hope you feel better today. I routinely have crap birthdays (since about the age of 4, to be honest), and I can def recomend the strategy of having a birthday day on another day.
Happy belated birthday m'dear. About to email you now, and sorry for neglecting to shout your birthday on my blog - I had checked this week and had it in mind it was today - oops!
chinese and baileys sounds good.
with you on the breastfeeding [but have decided not to use formula as she will then justshiek and i'll give in to get some sleep]
i am glad that SB doesn't feed, as 2 would drive me crackers. no useful advice though.
BB has 4th tooth today, and another one nearly there, so i'm being used as a teether.
more hugs
Could you share your home-made sugaring recipe with us? I can't seem to find one!
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